Child of Mine, Spent

Child of Mine

July approaches again

the poignant annual reminder

birth day

i know you

your first moments of life,

i looked into your eyes

as you started taking in everything

the new light of wonder

sounds of life, you heard

with your senses fresh 

untainted, my voice you listened

my face, my smile, my tears 

you felt my saline joy dripped upon you

you clasped my finger with your hand

your delicate strength gripping hard

upon your feet you placed weight

your first sense of upright movement

your giggle, a memory unfaded

like so many moments

faltering steps you took,

you bounced, yet rolled

propelled by determination

you tried, the room you crossed

strength grew, motion increased

steps, stairs, speed you conquered

steps to walk, walk to run

investigative spirit triumphed

everything worthy of tactile trial

nothing left untouched, unreached

ingenuity grew, your mind a playground

of thought and questions

your surroundings your teacher

fluffy stuff that moved

you handled, ran, looked

you play, you feed

feathers, feet, paws and pads

you knew them all, felt them

the dirt and grass shared

time spend 

questions, answers, mind inquiring

the gift of reading taught

green eggs and ham, zike bikes and the like

pooh and piglet, alice 

with intent you listened, 

you learnt 

to school, your days away from home

your sponge filled

you grew, friends you made

life you lived, carved out

your likes and dislikes formed

interests found and tried

and discarded 

growth of mind and spirit

what happened next?

how dark your world?

light found?

life continued

what did you do? 

and how?

how many firsts? and lasts?

who are you now?

eighteen years passed by

yet yesterday it feels

the last i saw your eyes, your soul

the you i knew

i loved you then,

through everything,

i love you still

fade it hasn't

nor will it.

tomorrow comes and goes

thoughts of you skip through my heart

light footed, free spirited

dance, bounce, joyful

for each tomorrow brings hope

a word to get, a picture to see

to hear you, to meet you

your light came into the world,

bright, strong and white

in my life it persists

unflickering, untainted

the perfect you-ness

moments of you, my surroundings suppressed

all senses giving way to feels

completely, bonds unbroken

saline drops, you inspired

fall not upon you this time

yet

time passes, eonic 

i await, 

ever, ever patient

Spent

my emotions, too much

erupt the tears

the saline well boils over

the feels, the hurts

swollen, my heart

torn once again

bruised and cracked

tears flow, falling

unending 

pain infused

my breathing limps

faltering

infinite nothing 

surrounds

a moment, forever

tears flow no more

regularity of breathing returns

slowly

eyes tired

sore, dry

embers of pain

remain

again

undying

my body spent

my emotions raw

bled out once more

the wound 

fresh covered

for now

the saline well burbles

yet

the spring

unstoppable

it seems

too much

still

i see, yet see nothing

i hear, yet hear nothing

life happens, around me

i hurt

spent

the well

still